A poem that observes the limits of communities and institutions in being willing or able to include the suffering and even the existence of those who find themselves on the margins of their borders. Dedicated in particular to those who are grieving in the wake of suicide.
We thought their faces would be enough
but these perfect masks never slip
and we never see each other’s eyes.
We thought the Law would be enough
but its infinite exceptions stripped it bare
leaving us exposed, divided, broken
relegating oneness to rote demonstrations of loyalty.
We thought that doctrine would be enough
to take care of the exceptions the Law could not bear
but instead it exiled grace to another world.
We thought that time would be enough.
We would wait until we evolved and could wash the clay out of our eyes
but the world around us changed and the unwashed clay hardened into masks
and cemeteries are the counting houses of our change.
We thought that love would be enough
surely love would be enough.
Is not love the essence of everything we believe?
But we turned all things–all words, all actions, all
intentions, all hopes–into love and affirmed that it
was the greatest of all and could not fail
and at our clinical distance
when it failed we could see nothing but victory.
Their faces were not enough.
The Law was not enough.
Doctrine was not enough.
Time was not enough.
Love was not enough.
Unless these are not their faces.
Unless this is not the Law.
Unless this is not our doctrine.
Unless time has not run out.
And this is not true love.
Devastating. Shattering. I want to wake up from this nightmare you have so exquisitely depicted. Thank you, Jacob.
Oh, Jacob. Wow. This is exactly what I was feeling yesterday and couldn’t make into words. Beautiful.